Follow-Up

Some of you might be worried about me since my last post so I would like to give an update on my white blood cell count- It is back to a somewhat "normal" or acceptable level.

Instead of waiting another two months, I had to go back to the the doctor for a follow-up visit in a week. He was pleased, as was I! It was a very, very long week of waiting and wondering. I tried not to let it get me down and although I wasn't planning on thinking about it all the time but no matter what I was doing, it was always in the back of my mind. My amazing Craig tried to help by asking all of his club members who had any experience with cancer or lymphoma about having a low white count and he kept trying to reassure me that it was a normal thing to happen and not to worry. I think being reassured by his members helps him as much as it helps me!

I hate having negative feelings. I feel they can become too detrimental to my health and healing but sometimes, in a situation like this, they are unavoidable. I was reassured about this by my dear friend Sharon while we were away with her and her husband last weekend. She told me that after what I had been through in such a short period of time, I was entitled my feelings. It's hard to stay so positive all the time. . .

And when all else fails, some song comes on the radio that helps with your doubts. Craig and I were in the car and the doubts were in the back of my mind when two songs came on the radio back to back. The first, "Hold On" by Michael Buble. It basically said that the two of us would get through it together (I'm paraphrasing). The second, "Live Like You're Dying", by Tim McGraw.

So, there you have it. Live.