I went back to the doctor for another blood check and my white count is low AGAIN!! He says I have neutropenia (decreased white blood cells) and he doesn't seem to be too worried. He doesn't even want me to come back until my next treatment which is May 4.
So, basically, I'm more susceptible to infection which isn't so great since I just started traveling a little bit and even went back to work for one day. Of course, sneezing, coughing and vomiting elementary school students are not the best thing for me right now. Which is too bad because I'm bored and lonely a lot. And let's not forget, emotional. Oy vey!!!
My entire body hurts sometimes and after testing there really isn't a diagnosis other than being caused by chemo and medications. I have been doing pilates and physical therapy which seem to help but it's tough. I feel so old!!! You should see me trying to get up out of the car after sitting for awhile-Wow!! Just give me a few minutes and then I'm up and about again.
I did find out that I have bursitis and capsulitis in my foot. That's a treat! And how is it treated, you may ask? Cortisone shots-OUCH!-which all of my friends have said- "It kills!", "It doesn't hurt that bad!", "You should see how long the needle is!!!", "You will feel so much better after you get it!". Sounds like fun-I'm terrified!!!! I hate needles!
I am trying to let the good times take precedence over feeling crappy and worrying about facing this illness for the next few years and the rest of my life. It works for awhile but it's so hard!! I had an amazing time in Atlanta with Craig, Bryan and Neka. It was a blast!!! The Braves/Phillies Game, the Hawks/Heat Game and family time-what more could you ask for? I just still can't believe that Bryan is 26!! How does that happen? I can close my eyes and see him as an adorable two year old!! I am so proud of the young man he has become.
Next week will provide another good-time distraction-Lindsey and I are going to see OPRAH for Lindsey's 22nd birthday!!! Thanks to Craig, we are off for a mother/daughter adventure in Chicago. Please pray that the rain stays away. There's nothing worse than being in the "windy city" when it is cold AND rainy. But, we will have fun no matter what!!!
Thanks for letting me vent. . .
I will hang in there, I will continue to beat this thing and I Will Survive!!!
